Self-Reflection is The Key

I am in a safe space

My toxic trait is that I self-isolate when I’m upset or troubled by something. My friends and family have come to understand this about me and know not to take it personally and allow me my space. The act itself isn’t toxic, but it’s the way I go about it. I will just disappear and not be responsive or be very short if I choose to respond. My reasoning is I don’t want to burden others or expose them to my low vibes at the time.

I’m trying to be better about this, though, because it’s not healthy or realistic to behave in such a way when you’re in a relationship. But that’s the beauty of relationships…They hold that mirror up for you to see yourself. It forces you to reevaluate how you do things and why you do them. It triggers you, and you can either get defensive and make up excuses and say that’s just how i am, or you can choose to do better and be better to nurture a healthy sustainable relationship.

My Beloved often times thanks me for loving him and being patient with him, but I give thanks for him too cuz baby I knows it ain’t always easy loving me especially when I shut down and don’t communicate as I try to process things on my own. I have to remind myself that I’m not alone anymore, and I’m in a safe space. I don’t have to hide my bad days from him. He loves all parts of me and wants to be there to support me.

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